I know it's more important to seek to understand than to be understood. And, oh my gosh, I understand how good everyone else is. And apostles have said that God's children have far more in common than they have differences. Understandings like these lead me to the conclusion that I am an arrogant, self-isolationist sinner. And maybe that's hitting the nail on the head. But, honest, I've tried to be good, and have charity, and serve, and "fit in."
Someone very kind was once nice enough to say that if I ever started a blog, they thought it would be super inspirational. I knew I would never be able to live up to that, and, so far, this blog has been pretty melancholy. But, honesty is always, at least, useful. And I don't think this "not fitting in" is a dead-end. I know there's hope and I know there's a solution. And, I've decided that maybe writing it down and looking it in the face is a step in the right direction. Anyway, things are always, always better after reading the scriptures and indefatigably trying to get outside myself and serve. I say "indefatigably trying" because I slip at that a lot, and it takes a relentless perseverance to pull myself back on track. Thank goodness for friends though! As George Eliot said, "What do we live for, if not to make life less difficult for each other?"